A day at college.

I return to post something which had been on my minds for a very long time. And i also cannot be without writing posts. So forgive my rather stupid action of declaring that i won't write anymore posts. My journey continues :-). This is the department of computer science, Anna University, a place i have to visit every Monday X-( . Mondays are by far the most torturous days of my life. Every semester a certain lab subject turns out to be to be very dull and boring. But I always found myself some work to do. By work i mean messaging my friends, chatting with them, studying sometimes and so on. I somehow found some work or the other. But this semester it turns out to be the WORST experience for a lab. I do find myself some work during the morning networks lab, where at-least you get to message, chat and also read in between some immense amounts of fun. In the noon we have the so called Software Development Lab (aka SDL) turns out to bad. You can't talk ! You can't message ! You can't blink your eyes or even sleep in this so called lab.



The lab doesn't have any work to be done. Well the teacher does give some work but its crap. We would be asked to implement some video analysis or some high class system without even proper softwares to implement them. Weekly once we have to visit that lab and type a document, God knows for what, because i doubt whether she even sees the documents. And to top it all, the teacher somehow finds the lab interesting and gives lectures about how valuable time is and how easily we are wasting it. Well if she does value time why doesn't she leave us off sooner than make us sit and sleep inside the lab. I get a splitting headache seeing her talk and give lectures (God save us). I doubt whether there's even a single soul who likes the teacher. How can she possibly go on and on, talking about that lab? Even the assistant teacher for that lab had voiced her opinion about the lab as being so boring and a waste of time.

I have just posted this because I felt damn irritated due to these labs. I have a knack of using foul language (which I am trying to reduce now). Many feel the urge to get up and shout back at the teacher for making a mockery of herself and torturing us. But being students we have learnt to bear these tortures. I just wanted to tell that Anna University is slowly losing its reputation and sheen. Its living on past reputation because of a few dumb employees and a few rude ones too.


P.S :- The college photo shows the older days of the college. Don't get fooled by what you see. For more details please do visit our college and see its BULL S*** functioning.

More than a blog.....

This post is purely of my idea. Any resemblance to living characters is purely unintentional. Yes, this blog is the only way i can pour out my feelings. Not fully though. This blog is between a diary and a friend. You may write everything in a diary. But telling everything to a friend means that friend is part of your soul. Means you TRUST them and expect them to respect your feelings. What would you do if that person himself/herself doesn't care about your feelings. Well. You may feel a little depressed. Maybe a little angry.

People would expect you to change. None would like a person who keeps on insulting others. Initially people may take it as a joke. But sooner or later people would start telling that they hate that habit and tell that person to change. "Love people as they are" is possibly the worst dialogue ever. Loved people expect each other to change so as not to hurt each other. If they can't even change, there's no point in that friendship. Mean you are friends with some person 'A' and you want 'A' to change a thing which actually hurts you. But you find that 'A' likes doing that thing the most and that 'A' can't change that habit for you. You find yourself in the middle. Stuck. You would have been expecting 'A' to tell a sorry at-least and tell you that he/she would change that habit. But 'A' doesn't even care. You have no choices. Either ignore 'A' when he/she does that thing. Else stay away from 'A' itself. 1st choice may sound easy. But its the toughest option ever possible. You can never ever pretend not to notice your closest person. Second would seem the toughest. But that would eventually sound the best option ever. If 'A' cant respect your feelings then you should learn to give 'A' his/her own space and leave off. Just leave them alone for a while till they realise their mistake. They will come on their own accord. "Love people as they are" and "Learn to accept people as they are" is total crap. It may be the best thing with respect to ordinary friends. Not with respect to close ones.

Signing off with my last ever post in this wonderful blog...

Arun.

Nasty moments of life....

This post may tell you about some nasty moments, not only in my life but in every person's life. Well losing friends is the hardest thing a person can do. Sometimes you may feel that you would have done so much for another person but the other person never reciprocates. Or maybe he/she does reciprocate when that person is alone with you. But when you go into a class full of people, the other person walks off silently as though you are invisible to him/her :) . I must have met this person around the 3rd semester. It was raksha bandhan. A wonderful day, which I literally hate now. A gal was standing with a rakhi in her hand, not knowing to whom to tie. And another gal cheerfully tells to tie to me. I wasn't much interested but didn't want to hurt her feelings. So i accepted the rakhi. And after that a rather close relationship with that girl blossomed. I used to spend like hell for her. I thought I was her best friend. Mean I assumed so. And lo... in some days you find her telling that some other person was only her closest friend because she walks with that person daily and chats. I had to sacrifice a lot for this girl. LOL. "Who asked you to sacrifice dumb head? I never asked you to". Being a sensitive person, all i could do was shed some tears. I had known that I was thrown out rather unceremoniously :P. I assumed that this girl would have known me after so many years. She asked me to come for an IV which turned out to be the worst days of my life. She asked me to eat lunch with her. Which again turned out to be bad. She kept on proving how unimportant I was to her. I have come a long way. I helped her in her dire situations. Well for nothing in return. And the only dialogue she gets to tell is "I will return slowly whatever you have spent for me". She thinks that I was with her for money rather than love. She thinks that by repaying the money she made me spend the deal was closed. Why couldn't she tell this way back before getting close :) ? You can't keep pondering. Can u? Just chuck it and go. Maybe you would feel for some days, maybe weeks or even months and years. But when the other person doesn't give a damn to your feelings, then you got to move on. When she thinks that by repaying the money spent the relationship was off, then you can't do anything about it. Just MOVE ON. Certain things in life seem very nasty. Forget it and move on.